Hola.
12:58 AM
I’m still here.
Just in case you’re one of the three people who has checked
this space in the past year and found nothing new, I would like you to know
that I am still part of the living. Also,
I apologize for not writing anything for this space for the past how many
hundred days.
To the curious, I went AWOL for the better part of two years
because I underwent one of the most profound yet quite typical of human
experiences which was getting my heart broken.
And how excruciating it is to admit, I could hardly put fingertips on
keyboard to do numerous post-mortems of the relationship, more so to write
stories from the heart.
Grieving I certainly was, though I only admitted it after
the 257th time I’ve said to myself that it was all for the best. After
that, I booked myself a holiday to a dream destination which happened to be as
disconnected to the outside world as one could be these days. Me, myself, and I
were going to be on the road again and I could hardly wait! After all, Dame Judy
Dench as Elizabeth I once said, heartbreak calls for a journey. And I was
determined to make this one an epic.
But the majestic karsts, young backpackers, nor the
crippling internet connection failed to keep my mind off of him. On the contrary, I wanted to share every
single thing with him. I wanted to comment how the distinct topography have
basically sealed this nation’s fate or how happy/ sad that the elders still
speak French or how resilient the people are for having survived a war that was
never really theirs. I wanted him there to talk to, to share a meal with, to
drag me out of bed because it’s time to give alms to the monks.
Not that I didn’t enjoy myself because I certainly did. I
cycled around town, scarfed down most of the food I laid my eyes on, and ogled pretty
much at every colonial structure.
And being on the road alone made me feel like myself again. I
am again that girl who doesn’t need anything but her backpack, her passport,
and her own two feet who’s on her way to see the world.
As this year unfolds, I hope to go farther and stay longer on
the road than I’ve ever been. Alone or with a companion, I don’t know. Let’s see what life has in store for me.
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A patch of wildflowers to uplift the mood. image from pexels.com |
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